Title: Puzzle Pieces Author: Invisigoth Feedback: Invisigoth4@lycos.com Rating: Strong R Classification: SRA Spoilers: Arcadia through Field Trip Disclaimer: Not mine Archive: Please ask first Summary: Scully and Mulder work on a puzzle, among other things She's adorable, Mulder allowed himself to think. Surely there was no harm in admitting that to himself. Scully sat against one of the large rock formations on the beach, her shoes off and her hair whipping wildly around her face. She was chewing thoughtfully on a sandwich and dug her toes into the sand. "So how is it to be thirty-five?" he asked, setting down his own sandwich. "About the same as thirty four," she replied. "Did you ever think you'd be spending your birthday in California, on a beach, about to play house with *me?*" He rolled onto his back and laced his fingers behind his head. He cloud gazed for a moment, spotting one that looked like Paul McCartney. It's just water and ice, Scully would say. She cast around for a reply and came up spectacularly empty. "There's no one else I would spend it with," she finally said and he flushed. XxXxXx She was sitting on her bed, channel surfing and transposing autopsy reports when a box dropped out of the sky. "Mulder?" she called through the connecting door. "What's this?" He appeared in his pajamas, sans shirt, with a toothbrush dangling from his mouth and an innocent expression. "Birthday fairy must have dropped it off," he said and when Colgate foam started sliding down his chin, held up a finger and backed into his room. He walked back in wiping his mouth on his wrist and sat heavily next to her on the bed. "Blind date, Scully?" he made a face, then a grab for the remote. "You gonna open it?" he asked all ready clicking his way towards ESPN. Scully carefully tore the wrapping paper and pulled out a plastic covered box. 1000 pieces, it boasted on the front. The flickering blue light from a basketball game illuminated a bright green alien, arms akimbo standing against a starry black background. "It thought they were supposed to gray," she said, turning it over in her hands. "Thank you, Mulder, for a completely impossible gift." "Don't thank me," he said as he dropped the remote back in her lap. He patted her knee sympathetically. "I'll help you out with it, Scully. Don't worry." "Bite me, Mulder." He smiled and leaned over her, hands on either side of her waist. "Kiss?" he asked instead and she nodded. She returned the gentle pressure on her cheek and squeezed his hand. "Happy birthday, Skeptic girl." She smiled at him gently. "Thank you, Monster boy." He tweaked her nose and left her alone, unable to stop smiling. XxXxXx "Scully," he said, bounding into her room, the door to her room flung wide and her extra key shining in his hand. "Scully, this is great; you've got to see this." "Mmph," she replied, pulling the blankets over her head. He immediately yanked them back down. "Scully..." he said, dangerously close to whining. "C'mon, put on some clothes, its cold out." She rolled out of bed, ignoring the way he ran his eyes over her pajama clad form. She pulled on a sweatshirt that had once belonged to him and stuck her feet in her shoes. Mulder fidgeted by the door and grabbed her wrist as soon as she was ready. "Donald Machholz discovered it in 1994 with a twenty five millimeter reflector," he said, his breath puffing in the cold air. Her nose was immediately frozen and she huddled in his sweatshirt. She'd nearly left him only six months ago so she wouldn't have to do this, wouldn't be dragged around in the middle of the night. Look what I would have missed, she thought, seeing the bright light in his eyes. I would have never seen this. "It split into fragments in its 1994 return but it's supposed to be brightest right now... see it? Over there?" He was like a little boy, his face chapped from the cold, his eyes glowing embers as bright as the stars. "See what?" she asked, standing close enough to him that their white breath mingled. He glanced briefly at her, surprised she couldn't read his mind after all this time. He carefully moved behind her and her thoughts began to race as he delicately held her ribcage. "Right in front of you," he murmured, his lips closer to her ear than was strictly necessary. "Over that pine tree." "It's a comet," she breathed, leaning the slightest bit into him. His fingers skittered up and down her sides, brushing the curve of her breast and sliding down briefly to her hips. She didn't concern herself with his possessive touch- it was Mulder after all. "It's Machholz's second," he said into her ear and she shivered not from the cold. She felt a jolt run through him when she tilted her head so their mouths were dangerously close. "Pictures of it were captured this October and November when we were busy with Mr. Crump... remember?" She nodded and they breathed against each other's mouths. It wasn't until he was back in his own room that it occurred to him to kiss her. XxXxXx Mulder did his Skinner impression for her one night in his apartment. She laughed at him, with him, whatever, but she laughed and that was the whole point. "A hurricane, Agent Mulder? What I see in your report here..." Mulder stopped abruptly, his hands still folded in the air as if he were Skinner at his desk. Scully looked at the ringing phone. Traitor, she thought. Look at what you've ruined. "You're such a goof ball," she said affectionately when he hung up. "Better than a goober," he replied smartly, flopping down on the other end of the couch and sprawling a long leg across her lap. She idly drew patterns on his slim ankle and contemplated the size of his foot. "What'dya wanna do?" he slurred, relaxing further and resembling a large cat. Scully stretched languidly, annoyed at how at how damp she still felt after spending a night in that hurricane in Florida. They were so casual with each other like this; after six years they were so seamlessly entwined that even a slightly intimate touch was second nature. "Watch a movie?" he suggested, scratching his stomach and yawning. She was distracting, sitting there in his apartment, taking up space and smelling like heaven. It made him want to tug at his collar and change into looser pants. "Hmmm, no," she said, straightening the magazines on his coffee table and pulling on his wrinkled sock. His toes curled, ticklish, and he found himself surprised that he didn't mind her fixing him up. Struck by sudden inspiration, he leapt off the couch and hurried towards his front hall. "Is the puzzle still in your bag?" he asked without turning around. Instead she heard different words from a different time. Is this show of boyish agility turning you on? "Yes," she answered, moving aside books and porn magazines so they would have room to work. He bounded back into the room, the couch letting out a whoof of leather scented air as he flopped down again. He handed her the small box and she tore at the plastic wrapping with a fingernail. Trust Mulder to pick out the hardest puzzle he could find. "This'll be fun," he said as she dumped out the tiny pieces. Fun, she thought. I remember what that is. XxXxXx "Did you know that if you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you will have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee?" Mulder asked from where he was sitting at his computer. Scully looked at the steaming mug sitting besides her and then up at him. "Your nose never stops growing," she countered and he grimaced. He frowned and flicked a seed at her. He drew a red X on the back of one of the puzzle pieces two nights ago. Just to see where it ends up, he said. "I think the guy's here," she said, hearing his door over the clamor in her head. "The guy?" "You know, the guy." Mulder got up, nodding in understanding, and Scully flipped the TV channel from basketball when he left the room. "Ick," he said, Chinese takeout in hand. "Is this that woman's channel?" He grabbed the remote from her and changed it again to cartoons. Scully thought that he must be the only grown man who could find cartoons on a Friday night. "How's it coming?" he asked, finding it necessary to lean closer to her as he asked it. "That piece goes there," he said and she frowned at him, annoyed, as he set out the greasy containers. In two weeks they'd only managed to finish half of the alien. They worked on it in fits and starts, when, picking him up in the morning for work, she'd get a few pieces while he hunted down his shoes. Or the odd night not filled with laundry or dinner at her mother's, she'd spend with him. It's the easy part, she complained one night when her head was hurting and her contacts were dry. It's all green, he had reminded her as if she had forgotten. And what fun is easy? After six years she was glad he still thought that. XxXxXx "Scully, get out of here now!" he yelled, shielding the child's body from the burning debris. "Move! I got him, just go!" She spun, taking one last long look at him crouched, his trench coat surrounding the boy and opened the warehouse door. "I'm gonna get backup!" she yelled above the noise of the explosion. "GO!" He scooped up the child, cradling the frightened form against his chest and searched for another way out. Embers rained down around him and he hissed as one caught the back of his neck. Shit, he thought, spinning and beginning to run. What a fucking bad day this was. His shoe caught on a plank of wood five feet from fresh air and he could feel his lungs filling up with smoke as he lay on the cement floor. He shoved the boy towards the waiting arms of the fireman and collapsed against the cool cement. He barely registered strong arms pulling him into the sunlight and was only dimly aware of Scully giving orders, getting him on a stretcher with an oxygen mask in a matter of seconds. "Are you ok, Mulder?" she asked when she returned to him a few minutes later. He wiped a smudge of soot from her cheek and she returned the favor, straightening his hair. There was the sound of ambulances, EMTs yelling to each other, the spray of fire hoses. Through it all Mulder heard only the reassuring beat of Scully's heart as he laid his head on her chest. "I was worried about you," he murmured and she ducked her head to hear him. Scully who never touched him needlessly in public, who was adverse to overt displays of affection and who denied vehemently any unprofessional feelings about her partner, wrapped her arms around his sooty shoulders and rocked him gently. "I'm fine," she said, pulling back to look at him. "What about you?" "My neck hurts," he confessed. "Kiss it better?" "You big baby," she said affectionately, studying the mild burn. He found himself eye level with her breasts as she leaned over him and found it suddenly difficult to concentrate on what she was saying. "Something about burn salve?" he mumbled into her shoulder where his head had fallen again. "Did you hit your head?" she asked, concerned at his inattentiveness. No, he wanted to say. You just smell so damn good. He felt her fingers probing his scalp and leaned back to grin lazily at her. "So, Doctor Scully, was I dropped as a child?" he said, enjoying the caress as much as she did giving it. "You're such a goof," she said, covering his eyes with one hand. He waited patiently until she took it away and felt her warm breath on his face as she studied his pupils. "All fine," she declared him and looked vaguely surprised to see his mouth so close to hers. She leaned in the slightest and he felt the strands of hair under his hand as he cupped her head. Here it comes, he thought, feeling lightheaded. Six years and all it took was a burned neck. "Agent Mulder? Did you get the disk?" They jerked guiltily away from each other and Scully turned, smoothing her hair down. Mulder produced the floppy disk from his pocket and handed it to the officer. He thanked them and hurried back to his squad car. "Scully, I-" "Later, Mulder," she said, holding up her hand. "Later." XxXxXx Mulder invited her to a wedding. "Why would you ask me?" she whined, and he saw her shoulders tense under her suit coat. He leaned one arm along the back of his couch and squeezed her neck. "Who else would I invite?" he asked and she shrugged, not wanting to know the answer. She distracted her self with the alien's arm, piecing together the hand and moving on to the wrist as he spoke. "Besides, I will be teased for the rest of my life if I don't have a date." A date, she thought, scrutinizing him. Huh. "All your family's going to be there?" she asked and the light caught in his eyes as he nodded. "So you'll come?" he said hopefully and it was her turn to nod. "Don't be heartbroken when you realize I'm not the smartest," he warned and she smiled coyly at him. "You always will be to me," she said and he grinned at her, pleased. XxXxXx It was ridiculously easy to be held by Mulder as they danced and Scully fought off the urge to lay her head on his chest and squeeze him tight. He was spiffed up in a silk tie, his best Armani and that cologne that never failed to set her heart going; she had found it increasingly difficult as the evening wore on to keep her hands off him. "Having a good time?" he murmured into her ear intimately enough that without that last glass of champagne she might have protested. Or might not have. "Your cousin's very nice," she replied, feeling his raspy cheek against her own. Handsome too, but that seemed to run in the family. "Haven't spoken to him in a long time," he said. "Mulder," she said seriously, suddenly concerned. He quirked an eyebrow at her and smoothed his hand on her waist. "Do you think you'll ever get married?" "I... I haven't met anyone that I would want to marry," he stammered, caught off guard at the question. She was surprised to feel disappointed at his answer and chastised herself for it. "Except you, maybe," he was saying. "I think I'd marry you." Oh, she thought. Oh. "Wait, Scully that came out wrong." He tensed in preparation for her to draw away, run away and seemed flustered when she didn't. "I don't want to get married, but if you did, I... not that you would want to marry me or anything, but there's no one else, so don't worry, not that you would..." "Shut up, Mulder," she said and gave into the urge to put her cheek on his shoulder. His hand shook as it curved over her hip and he slowly relaxed against her. "You know Scully, fifty percent of marriages fail," he said and she thought how this probably wasn't the best place for that statistic. "We wouldn't want that, Mulder," she replied, smelling his wonderful scent and running her hand over his shoulder. "No, Scully, we wouldn't." He kissed her cheek and closed his eyes and hoped everything would be ok. XxXxXx "Next time you get an e-mail about lights in the sky, Mulder..." Scully had been threatening him for the last hour, her shoes crunching in the icy snow. The cold had turned her nose red and he was holding one of her hands to keep it warm. Well, that's what they told themselves. "I can think up some good punishments," he said with a leer and she huffed out a breath. "Can you believe how dark it is? How many stars there are?" "Well, that's what happens in no-where Maine in the middle of winter," she sighed and convinced herself she was walking closer to him for warmth. He tugged her to a stop when he stood still for a moment, head tipped back, foggy breath spiraling up. "God," he murmured, cradling her hand close and leaning into her. "Look at that. Just look." It *was* beautiful, she admitted to herself. Billions of stars, all pinpricks of light against the inky black night, and Mulder, standing beside her, radiating warmth like a furnace. It was a toss up as to which she was more enraptured with. "See? I bet now you're glad the car broke down." He nudged her playfully, scanning the trees at the edge of the field. She groaned and shoved him back, hard enough that he had to take a step back to regain his balance. He read over her shoulder, wrote "X- buried treasure" on his maps, chewed on pens he borrowed, and was now leaning over her, his face way too close. It was, in retrospect, a completely normal, completely boring first kiss, so unlike them that she was sure it couldn't possibly have happened. But the memory of his warm, dry lips was still fresh in her mind and the tell tale flush she could see in his face as he looked away left her no doubt. "We should, uh, probably get going again," he said, staring at her lips and shifting from foot to foot. "Yeah, probably," she agreed. They stood there for a moment, looking at each other, before she grabbed the back of his neck and he took a step forward. Their teeth clinked together in their haste and she was pretty sure she bit his tongue. Her lip got caught against his teeth but she was too far gone to complain about it. They pulled apart again with a wet smack and Scully turned away so she wouldn't have to look at him. Mulder looked at his feet and shuffled them while Scully stared at a cloud over his shoulder. She could still feel his tongue in her mouth like a retinal after image and she sighed. "That," he said, pushing her hair out of her face, "was the worst kiss in the history of kisses. "I agree completely," she replied and smacked his hands away. He grinned at her words and she was afraid he would take out his notebook to have it in writing that she agreed with him. "We can do better I'm sure," he said. She slid her hands around his biceps and squeezed through the wool of his coat. "I guess we'll just have to work on it." She linked her arm through his and they started walking again. "Think about it, Scully, instead of doing expense reports if we put that time towards..." "Mulder..." "I'm being serious here, Scully." "Shut up, Mulder." XxXxXx He called her at the gym and she had to scramble through her coat pockets and gym bag to find her phone. There was the clanging of lockers slammed shut by other women, the pitter patter of the shower and the trilling of her phone as she fumbled to press SEND. "Scully," she said, turning her back on the curious stares of the other women. "Did you turn in the expense reports on the dog case?" She sighed and dropped onto a nearby bench. She brought up the hem of her tee shirt to mop the sweat from her face and blew an angry breath into the mouth piece to annoy him. "This couldn't have waited till Monday?" she asked, rubbing at the muscles in her neck. She hurt all over with burning muscles as proof of how little she got to the gym these days. The ache in her legs and arms wasn't much different than the fire Mulder could start in her with a few soft kisses on his couch. Although her fingers along the line of her shirt felt much different than his when he massaged the tension out of her neck from bending over the puzzle all night. "Scully..." he sighed back and she could imagine him rubbing a hand over his eyes. "It's your turn to do them and Skinner said-" "I did them, Mulder." "Oh." She could all but hear him back peddling. "I, uh, sorry bout that." She closed her eyes, tipping her head from side to side and toeing off her sneakers. She dropped them in her bag and started rooting around for her street clothes. "And the 302 about that escaped prisoner in Mississippi?" "We're flying out Monday afternoon after that section meeting." She peeled off her socks and wrinkled her nose as she tossed them after her sneakers. "Don't be late like last week, ok?" "I didn't mean... it was my waterbed..." he must have heard her rolling her eyes all the way across the city because he finally chuckled. "Thanks, Scully." "No problem, Werewolf Man." He laughed again. "Just call me Wolverine." "With that haircut, maybe." "Ouch, Scully." She listened as he shifted on his couch. "If I'm Wolverine, can you be Wonder Woman?" "Wrong comic, Mulder." "Just think, you and me, out to save the world like always." "Have a nice weekend, Mulder." "And you'd look great it that..." "Bye, Mulder." XxXxXx "Scully, I thought we could order pizza or something for dinner." She looked up from where she was putting on her shoes and scrutinized him. He had his hands in his pockets, his bare toes digging into the wood floor and his lower lip in his mouth. "Mulder, it's late and I should really get..." He frowned and she stopped talking, feeling the couch move as he sat down. "You haven't been around much lately, Scully," he commented, looking worried and out of place. She resisted the urge to smooth his hair down, to wrap her arms around him, to drag him into his bedroom and have her way with him. "Did I do something?" "No, Mulder... I've, I've just been tired, that's all," she said quickly and he looked morosely at her. "You can sleep here," he said before he could think about his words. He watched her carefully to make sure she didn't take offense. She had been jumpy around him lately, sitting on the other side of the couch, pulling away sooner when he kissed her. "You're not regretting any of this, are you?" "No, I just..." she hesitated, putting her hand on her forehead. The truth was that she couldn't keep her hands off him and it was becoming increasingly difficult to think straight when he was around. He tentatively put his hand on her shoulder and when she didn't move away, slid it around her and kissed her hair. "Pizza you said? I could do pizza." XxXxXx She sat an hour later facing Mulder on his couch, her hands lightly caressing his shoulders, and her tongue in his mouth. She attempted to remain composed, pretending she didn't feel the fire burning in her stomach, didn't love the feel of his hand on her breast. Her head felt like a fluffy cloud, like it was filled with champagne bubbles and she let out a breathy moan, moving closer to him. He gathered her up carefully in one arm, rubbing his thumb across her nipple and sucking lightly on her lip. He could feel her pulse in her chest; it matched the steady throbbing of the erection he was desperately trying to ignore. Her knee slid over his thigh, pressing against him and he couldn't help his hips giving an involuntary jerk. "Sorry about that, Scully." he mumbled, squeezing his eyes tightly closed. "It's ok," she said, rubbing her hands in his hair. He sat up suddenly and keeping a warm palm on her back, lowered her carefully onto the couch below him. She stared up at him with wide eyes as his hands fluttered up and down her sides, over her breasts, her thighs, in her hair. Their hands found each other while their eyes squeezed shut at the feel, the idea that they were doing this together. "Scully," he breathed into her ear and she couldn't help but pull him closer. "Oh, Scully." XxXxXx They had, at some point, made it to his bed but she would be hard pressed to remember just when. Was it after his shirt had joined hers on the floor? Before her hand slipped inside his jeans and his mouth worked like a fish? Surely before he slipped inside her, both of them squirming with the exquisite pleasure, certain that when they'd open their eyes again they'd be alone. And afterwards, it was hard for her to reconcile this sweaty tousled creature with the man who filed expense reports, tossed pencils into the ceiling, saw aliens. She convinced herself it wasn't a mistake, that they could still work together, be friends after what had happened here. That she could still look at him the same way now that she knew what it felt like to have him inside her. But, God, it was hard to think with his fingers tracing her thigh and his mouth pulling on hers. His voice was husky when he told her he loved her, over and over, as he pushed inside her again and she closed her eyes so she wouldn't have to meet his, wouldn't have to think about this. XxXxXx She couldn't find him after the third time. She opened her eyes and squinted at the clock and no, it couldn't be that late all ready, they had just eaten dinner. But being pushed into a mattress over and over, coming time and time again as he shook around her had passed the night and she found herself stiff as she swung her legs over the edge of the bed. His pants were absent, gone from where they had been kicked off the end of his bed. She found her own clothes neatly folded on his bureau and carefully put them on. Her body, she found as she stood in the dim light from the window, had tiny teeth marks, spots of burn from his stubble, bore the signs of a night with him as unmistakable, undeniable truth. She found him sitting at his computer, his jeans on but not buttoned, his hair sticking up at odd angles. She wanted to reach out and run her hand across those shoulders, feel the smooth, tan, skin that she had so recently dug her nails into but settled instead for pulling a piece of his wayward hair. "I've got to pick up the dry cleaning tomorrow," he said and she leaned over his shoulder to read the e- mail he was typing, her hands braced on the back of his chair. "And the Gunmen say their sorry again for that whole Vegas thing." She nodded, noticing their address in the heading of the e-mail. His modem beeped and booped as he hit SEND and closed the browser. Her hands slid, completely without her permission, to his neck where he grabbed them with his own and pulled on them. She curled her fingers around his and rested their hands against his collarbone. "Scully, I just wanted to say that-" "Mulder, you don't have-" he cut her off, releasing her hand to put on finger against her lips and looked back at her with pleading eyes. "Love you, Scully," he said quickly, as if he might lose his nerve. It was surreal, all of it, standing in his living room in the middle of the night, listening to words she had resigned herself to never hearing from him, the scent of sex still clinging to them both. They interviewed witnesses together, poked around in the dirt and sat through endless meetings; these words, sex, this didn't fit into the equation of their lives that she had drawn up. She looked down at him, her heart breaking at the expectant look on his face and she carefully drew her finger down his nose. "Such an inadequate word for what I feel for you," she said and he nodded after a moment, smiling. XxXxXx When she stepped out his door the next morning, wearing the extra suit she kept at his place and smelling like his soap she was surprised to find the earth still moving, life still going. We slept together, she wanted to yell to his neighbors. We had sex, stop and take notice. He didn't kiss her goodbye when they reached their separate cars, didn't hold her hand or touch her hair. They were still Mulder and Scully and nothing really had changed. XxXxXx Cartons of Chinese food littered his desk and steaming plates sat in front of them on his coffee table. More and more puzzle pieces had made it into the puzzle and less and less were scattered around the table. Dark wood still could be seen above the alien's shoulder and by its foot and Mulder was convinced that they were missing a piece. They sat and ate, their fingers moving over the puzzle while they were chewing. They had slept together once, a week ago, and the memory still made her week at the knees. Their shoulders brushed casually as they worked, comfortable with each other. He eventually sighed and pushed back from the table, his hands rising to rub at his eyes. He let out a frustrated groan and she dropped a piece of lo mien into his open mouth. He swallowed and kissed her, his mouth tasting of spices and coffee. He pulled away after a moment and tucked his face into her shoulder. Their mushrooms were pushed to the side of their plates and she hadn't looked towards his bedroom since she got there, afraid of the memory of his casket. "I don't want to get digested again," he confessed into her neck, his breath fluttering over her skin. She curved her arm around his back and let him press her back so he was lying on her. He was warm and solid, six feet of muscle and bone, and he curled up with his head on her breast. "You're heavy," she told him. "Get off me." "I should have left you down there," he quipped back, a hand curled around her waist. "See if I rescue you next time we get eaten." She snorted and ran her fingers over his ass. "I'll never do your expense reports again." "I'll mess up your desk." He grabbed her little finger in his fist. "Mix up the paper clips with the butterfly clips." "You wouldn't." He raised an eyebrow at her. "You're cute. I think I'll keep you." He smiled as she flirted with him, slipped her hand under the waistband of his jeans, as she helped him forget about giant mushrooms, the world outside her eyes. XxXxXx End Author's Notes: One huge thanks to my beta, Jess, who knows more about grammar and direct objects than I will ever hope to. I don't think I could have done this without you, hon. Tons and tons of thanks and chocolate Mulders! Love you! http://invisigoth4.tripod.com/index.html